Singer/songwriter McCall has shared a new song “One Eye Open,” the latest track off her forthcoming release On Self Loathing, available this summer. Part introspective alt-pop ballad, part postmortem of a physically and mentally abusive relationship. “One Eye Open” follows McCall’s previous single “Disaster,” which came out earlier this year.
McCall on “One Eye Open:”
The song is about trying to enter into a new relationship before you have fully healed from the last one. In a darker sense, this song is about the PTSD that arises after a physically and mentally abusive relationship. When someone, who claims to love you, manipulates, gaslights, and physically harms you, it tears down your trust in yourself and your trust in the people around you. I often think ‘well, I believed that X loved me even when they were abusive, so I must not have a good sense of character, therefore I will most likely pick an abusive partner in the future, so I should probably just not date, or have friends, or feel anything at all, because if I do I’m going to end up where I was when I was 18.'”